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November 2014

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In discomfort but hoping for a better day

I realise that this isn’t the typical, ultra positive, sometimes humourous cancer blog that I see from others but I do have an important message that can sometimes get lost: NEVER BE SCARED TO SHOW THAT YOU ARE SCARED. This doesn’t mean looking for sympathy but to me it means showing all sides of cancer so that people can show empathy through greater understanding of how you feel day to day. This is challenging because obviously you would want to be seen as you and not a disease which is completely understandable and the right attitude to have!  To me it’s about balance, I post positive and negative. At the moment it’s negative which probably isn’t great to read but when my symptoms are under control I do some really fun, positive stuff! Willow Foundation sent me to the Arsenal training ground not long before my bday for example and it was an incredible experience! I have had a lot of great experiences and I’m very thankful. At the moment my headaches and fatigue is so bad that I can’t get out of bed so I’m reflecting on the good days from this year. With Alexis Sanchez. Watching him train was brilliant Meeting Kieron Gibbs, one of my favourite Arsenal players Ellen Macarthur sailing trip Bournemouth with Youth Cancer Trust In Liverpool for a conference on ketogenic therapies for neurological disorders. Cooking with Youth Cancer Trust in Bournemouth. Age range is up to 30 which is unusual but fantastic. With David Seaman at The Big Match With my nephew.  With my neice, cancer makes you think about kids and relationships a lot if you’re young and single like me- in good ways and also very sad ways.  It is very important to let go of negatives but here is another…

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Anxious and frustrated

I tried to go outside and now I’m in bed exhausted in a lot of discomfort. I couldn’t even walk in a straight line and felt as though I was going to feint. Now I’m sat in bed and I feel as though I’m on a boat, something isn’t right here. I have a scan for next week but I’m trying to get it done sooner.  I didn’t look too confident on my way out. 🙁

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Hospital again

I’m collecting too many of these! Just came back from hospital, feeling very groggy with a splitting headache after an unusual seizure but the CT scan results showed no bleeding. I had a feeling this might happen after nearly having a seizure in public a couple of days ago, stumbling around confused. I hope to get my MRI scan over and done with soon because I still have worries and concerns. 

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